『 My Smile•Dream•Loves 』: April 2011

29/04/2011

Satisfication

I was looking for the meaning of the happiness,
I thought it was somewhere else...
Though it was right here...
After midnight... little by little,
the lights in town are turned off again.

Waking up from a dream,

this sleepless room is also a dazzling piece of night.

Overlaying with the constellations up in the sky,
I draw your smile.
Before tomorrow turns to today,
Tears change into love.

I was looking for the meaning of the happiness.
I was looking at a star that I cannot see.

Letting go off your hand,
I was looking for love without knowing its meaning.
Though it was right here.
The night wind that passes over my cheek,
it might be a proof of the earth rotating.
If you get moving,

things change.

Is the wind telling me that ?

I was looking for the meaning of the happiness.
Heading for a dream island.
Traveling with no clue.
Being blown by tomorrow’s wind,
I was swayed in between the time flow.
By getting what thing,
what did I lose?
By carrying what thing,
what did I drop?
Because important things are everywhere,
I cannot realize it.

I was looking for the meaning of the happiness.
I thought it was somewhere else.
Believing only myself,
I was looking for love without knowing its meaning.
Though it was right here.
Passing over the night,
I want to go see you.

Always Keep The Faith ❤

27/04/2011

!!

现在是怎样？

最讨厌别人拿我的功课一直讲一直讲了，

有没有想过人家的感受？

我也在这里声明，

有一些我也是问朋友的啦，

可以不要一直酸人家吗？

还有，

请不要把人家的名字叫得那么粗俗！

要开玩笑可以，

有必要叫到让那么多人知道吗？

你不要脸，

我也要的！

好心一下！

A friend that keep finding chance to complain this complaint that,

That's not a truth friends.

I rather don't want to have this such of friend.

P/s: If you thought that I'm saying you,

Mean, You're really who I'm talking about =)

Always Keep The Faith ❤

四月

2四月份即将结束，

每年四月份的每一天，

都是心情复杂的。

2008年的四月份发生太多事了。

阿嫲走了。

还记得那年我生日不久，

清明节扫墓时，

你对我们一家人公布说

你决定去开刀了。

我还记得那时是星期日，

星期一你就去医院动手术了。

因为补习，

我星期四晚上才去看你，

那时你告诉我：

阿嫲明天复诊好了，

就可以回家了，

以后脚不会痛了。

怎知，

第二天放学爸爸在我回家，

以为回家就可以看到你，

爸爸却在路上告诉我，

因为医院的疏忽，

你复诊一半时中风了。

回家的路上，

我没说话，

眼泪在眼眶打滚。

你原本以为可以轻松的走路时，

上天竟然宣告说你永远将会半身不遂，

这种情况持续几天，

终于有一天，

在我沉睡的时候，

妈妈从医院回来，

说你的肺部受细菌感染，

就算动手术，也永远变成植物人。

结果，他们决定让你摆脱那星期的痛苦。

爸爸说，要是你醒来，

看到自己变成那样，

你也会痛苦。

再说，你一向来最怕就是会连累到人。

就在1am++

你回家了。

那时家人都围绕着你，

我都没机会好好叫你一声。

过后我发烧了，

吃了药后，

竟然睡去！

醒来的时候，

我不敢出去房间，

因为你就躺在客厅。

弟弟进来告诉我你已经在3am++ 走了。

一整个早上，我都没哭，

我以为我很坚强，

就在他们把你放进你永远躺着的床，

我的眼泪情不自禁掉下来。

送走你的最后一天，

我以为已经5天了，

不会再哭了。

怎知，

我还不能放下一直在我身边13年的你。

你走不久，

和我们一起生活1年的 bit bit 也走了。

你就好像带走了一切。

还记得小时候，

每次生病，

妈妈都会泡了我最讨厌的麦片，

要我喝完，

你却陪在我旁边，

一口一口为我吃完。

现在，

我长大了，

麦片对我来说也是小事了。

可是我不会忘记和你一起的回忆的。

我们都很好，

你就不用担心了.

我们永远爱你♥

Always Keep The Faith ❤

25/04/2011

Finally..

Finally you stop angry at me =D

It's nice to explain it out..

Love you <3

I really hate this kind thing,

Please dont do it again,

I dunwan any flirt,

I just want a sincerely heart :D

Always Keep The Faith ❤

Before U Go

If you feel it’s a burden that all my senses are focused only on you,

I will leave now;
If I made you suffer ’cause I couldn’t control my feelings,

I will go now .

I was afraid that like a “hooc”,
you might fly away from my side.
Not a day could I rest saying “hugh…”
I didn’t know then that I was hurting you with
my foolish obsession.

Just know this before you go,
That I was the only who loved you only
So stupid was I,
an idiot, a scumbag who couldn’t even protect you
If you stay beside me ’till the end,
You’ll be more heartbroken, you might fall.
Made a very good choice…
A person who will set you free,
will come to you, will come to you

I won’t make any more of small excuses
So make that kind of look on your face no more
(So sad…) With my mouth shut,
I only wanted to wish your happiness
I wasn’t that, no no no…
In the cold wind, with “hoo”,
I warmed up your cold hands.
“Pooc” (deep) in my arms, after a year,
we had our first kiss
I gave myself to you, I always do

Thank you for giving me happy memories
You go on and don’t remember, forget everything
Don’t look at me with worried eyes, I’m OK

Someday all my heart’s wounds will be cured
Someday I will meet a nice person…
Forget! Yeah, forget everything and hurry up and go!
Before I change my mind and hold onto you.

Out of habit, I might call you without knowing
Hello? Hello? Hello? Hello?
Missing you crazy, if I’m at your door,
be cold…

Always Keep The Faith ❤

23/04/2011

110422 Music Bank

Today music bank was nice!

And..

Wuli TVXQ dance RISING SUN.

But,

the dance without 5 is not so high =(

Well,

I'm happy also

because the staff of the hotel in Taiwan said that

they saw JYJ dancing to Rising Sun when HoMin started to perform it..

Zzang Zzang!!! This's the power of wuli namja XD

偶然

我是天空里的一片云，
偶尔投影在你的波心

你不必惊异，
更无须欢喜，

在转瞬间消灭了踪影。

你我相逢在黑夜的海上，
你有你的，我有我的，方向；
你记得也好，
最好你忘掉，
在这交会时互放的光亮。

徐志摩

人

Created by nal yeoja =)

Busy dayS again ,

exam coming soon !!!

*tired

MISS SEJARAH arr...

can you disappeared in my life?

人最悲哀的，

并不是昨天失去得太多，

而是沉浸于昨天的悲哀之中。

人最愚蠢的，

并不是没有发现眼前的陷阱，

而是第二次又掉了进去。

人最寂寞的，

并不是想等的人还没有来，

而是这个人已从心里走了出去。

---

Always Keep The Faith ❤

18/04/2011

110417 MBC 50th anniversary

Opening ::

TVXQ- Keep Your Head Down

Jo Kwon&Gain-We fell in love

SNSD- Hoot

第三年

今天已经是你离开我们的第三年了。

三年了，

你过得好么？

天国的邮递员，

真的存在么？

这三年，

大家都变了，

我还是没机会跟你学做 kuih kapit，

你答应要教我的，

你答应的。

5pm 了，

要不是医院失误，

或许现在你还在客厅看福建戏。

所以我也不想当医生，护士之类的，

我不怕害死人，

只怕受害者的家人会和我有同样的感受。

你以为动手术后，

以后走路就没有那么辛苦了，

怎知。。。

放心吧，

我们大家都很好。

你就好好的走吧 =)

Always Keep The Faith ❤

10/04/2011

Cracks Of My Broken Heart

Maybe we need just a little more time
time that can heal what's been on your mind
you can find what we lost before it all slips away
we need time to mend from the mistakes i've made
god only knows what a heart can survive
so many tears from all the pain in our lives
and where else could we go after all we've been through
i still believe my life is right here with you

so just hold on
and it'll wont take long
i hope that you can love me
when the pain is gone
i don't want us to fall through
the cracks of a broken heart
don't want us to fall through
the cracks of your broken heart

i know its taking a while but every lesson, i've learned
and if your heart speaks tonight, i'll hear every word
if you want to be free i'll never stand in your way
but with all that i am, i'm asking you to stay

there's a light that can burn
it exists in the heart
you can feel it when you know love is true
if you could try to be strong
and keep the light burning long
it took a lifetime but i found it in you

Always Keep The Faith ❤

09/04/2011

想听的话

慢慢把车窗摇下，
你在转角处等她。
难过像打翻的茶，
浑开一整片对你的牵挂。

这场爱不会开花，
我清楚却割舍不下。
明知你爱的是他，
却还是学不会摆脱这挣扎。

想听的话你说给了她，
我的快乐从此蒸发。
如果痛是爱的代价，
那伤心，
像沙该怎么画？

想听的话得不到回答，
我却还在独自装傻。
等雨打湿我的脸颊后，
让你看不见，
我眼角的变化。